Just Can’t Have Anything Nice…
Hurt myself again.. and yes, I can still feel! Sunday night, as I lay sleeping, a horrible pain sprouted from deep within my lower right abdomen. This ache was so painful that it woke me from my sleep with a cry. It felt mean and ripping… like someone had shoved a dull knife into my […]
Working Wounded?
Welcome to the “Working Wounded”?
Wait… What?!
If you truly understood, you’d know that I have been the “Working Dead” for the past 8 years! The only time I felt truly good was when my body had purged these drugs that are trying to prevent THE REAL DISEASE from rearing its ugly head!
Till Me Under, Plant My Heart…
Lately, for reasons I can’t define, I’ve been having a hard time dealing with a lot of loss I’ve experienced over the past few years. I try not to think on it a lot, but it’s still there watching from just off stage like a nervous stage mother — So much pressure to act natural and ever make a good impression.
Watch That First Step
I did it. I took the first step on a journey I’ve been mentally preparing for over the past 20 years:
I signed up for my first vocal coaching session as an adult…
In fact, I signed up for an entire months worth!
A Long Time Coming
I remember the fist time I heard myself sing on tape and how it has, in a round about way, affected my entire life.
A Toast to 2013
2013 crept in quietly by the front door at midnight on January 1, 2013. She napped on the sofa for the first few months. (No doubt exhausted by jumping the previous year’s hurdles.) She slept late during that time, growing fat and resting well….
Project 365 ~ December 2013
Just like the snow, December came with little warning and disappeared just as quickly. In fact, this entire year has seemed to fly by. It seems only a few days ago that we were spending New Year’s Eve fixing a broken couch and watching bad films as we waited to welcome 2013… And here we are, once again, on New Year’s Eve, waiting to usher in yet another new year… And so goes the cycle.
Letters on the Wind: Alex
Hey, Alex,
How’s the afterlife? Seeing that you’re new there, I doubt you’ve got it all down just yet… But I bet you’ve got a good bead on things just the same. Of course, those of us you’ve left behind are stuck here first wondering why. Then accepting the inevitability of what has transpired and, finally, knowing that this not some joke. That you are gone. That they’d seen pieces of this floating downstream for months. That they wish they’d said something, done something, been something in that final moment where persuasion might have actually been met with understanding. Where certainty still could crumble into something other than where we are now… But we didn’t. You did. That’s that.
I hope the trip was uneventful. (or at least uneventful in a negative way… I’m all for positive right now.)
Settling for a Life that is Less
No one mentions the inherent risk in living this way. No one really talks about what this particular person had to endure to be who he was… What he had to live with to be able to meaningfully say and think these thoughts.
Project 365 ~ October 2013
Project 365 Post – October ushered in cooler weather, family travel, and a generally good time!
Wanderlust
I have been struck by the strong desire, NAY! I have been overtaken by the impressing need to travel lately. I can’t explain it, but just an hour ago I have entertained the fantastic notion of purchasing a plain ticket to, well, anywhere that’s not the US (and fairly temperate) and going there. RIGHT NOW! […]
Project 365 ~ August 2013
August was a month of getting things back to normal. School started for the kids. Planning was done. Things were said. Driveways were cut in. Parties were had. Stuff, just kinda happened! We visited the Balloon Festival in early August and we also scoped out the scary, abandoned Metro North Mall. The Scouts had a […]
Project 365 ~ July 2013
I’ve labelled this last month “The Lost Month”. Staring on June 22, I have been on so many different immune suppressing medications that by July 14, I ended up with an emergency stay in the hospital due to a very nasty infection and a subsequent semi-quarantined, work-from-home existence for the entire rest of the month. In fact, I spent so much of my time hidden away from anyone who might be a carrier of disease that I actually started relishing the life of a hermit!
Toast & Tea: July’s Just Fine for Fighting
(So’s Friday, I hear.)
Was looking through my Sunday eReading and stumbled upon these gems to possibly lighten & enlighten.
Compassion?
Note to Self: People are NOT Slippers. Relationships are NOT like riding a bike. Friendships are NOT like in the movies. You do NOT have to bend so far you break. Loyalty is hard to come by. Adulting is hard. I find it problematic how I readily attach myself to people and then five minutes […]
Sick and Dying on the Midnight Express
Hollie contemplates the next steps and her parental relationships as she deals with the changing face of illness.
Project 365 – June 2013
June was marked by a major MS exacerbation and the subsequent treatment thereof. Not a lot of travel, but a lot of family time was to be had by all. Here are a few highlights ~H Zona Rosa’s Entrance Tower The Blanket Monster DOES Exist! The newest Will Smith action Flick… No […]
So Goes the Day…
Homemade Spring Rolls: Family’s first time making them and absolutely delicious! Lots of first times lately, but damn I just don’t want to miss my only chances, you know? When this stuff happens, these things happen, I get so scared… I know that everything slips. It falters. It fades. It ends. Mortality is a terrible, […]
