I’m too skinny, he says…
But to that one? I’m much, much too fat…
And she thinks I’m too loud, but her friend finds me too quiet…
And I’m definitely too much on the whole…
but still not quite enough.
There are times when I’ve been handsome, beautiful even, when the mood strikes you… yet entirely too plain, too ugly, too average for most.
Let’s take note — I was too serious, yet far too funny… Too tough, too soft… Too friendly, yet distant… so very distant.
Sometimes I’m just too smart, too experienced, too informed, yet I know nothing, can’t hold my own, and am such a dumbass…
Tomorrow I’ll be just right, but today I’m just not?
Yesterday though… yesterday I was perfect… but still I wasn’t… just ask him.
And everyone has an opinion, like somehow my body, my personality, my actions, my very soul is up for debate, correction, change at the whim of the public, the call of the masses, the directive of the individual… the demand of you…
So fuck it, I think. Who cares what the collective you thinks, what you want, what you need…
Yet I do care! I want the world to voicelessly proclaim in silent adoration how much I’ve suffered, how greatly I’ve performed, how far I’ve exceeded expectation, how worthy I am of spoils beyond number for what I’ve done, what I will do… what I wish I’d done…
But realistically I know we are programmed to see the faults. We are designed to see what’s wrong, what can be better, what isn’t like us… or isn’t like how we’d like to see ourselves, more likely…
So I’ll simply continue to be too me…
And you can continue to be way too you…
And we’ll absolve ourselves to disagreeing about our general perfection and imperfection as we must… as we should.
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