Impotence
I can’t model for shit these days. I’ve tried a couple times, but I feel so fucking undesirable I just don’t know what to do. It’s my own fault, I suppose. I just try to fantasize about something, someone, some place… that I want, desire, long for and I’ve got nothing lately. I start, but it always turns badly and I end up feeling worse than when I started. (You know something’s wrong when even your fantasies reject you!
